learning

Things I have learned this week:

I have the best friends ever. Seriously.

Kendyll and Shaylyn are two of the most adorable gals I know.

I shouldn't read into any of the crazy dreams I have.

Hearing from an old friend out of the blue is priceless.

What I consider short hair is not what
other people consider short hair.

I am allergic to contacts. I think. And I'm upset about it.

The government hates people who are married who don't own houses,don't have kids, and aren't going to school.

We are getting screwed by our taxes.
And no, I don't want to talk about it.

I cry every time I see a TurboTax and/or H&R Block commercial.

Sometimes, all I want to do is cuddle up in a blanket and watch tv.

I am thoroughly entertained by Joss Whedon's show Firefly.

My dream is to be able to stay home and cook all day.

I would totally rock a Food Network Channel show.

My dad thinks I make the best chocolate cake ever.
But don't ask... It's a secret recipe.

I am not addicted to my phone.
I can be without it for hours and not care.
(Which I consider a great feat, compared to all of those Blackberry/iPhone addicts. No offense.)

I wish I were more like my mom.

Sometimes when everything is going wrong,
God lets you know it'll be ok.

Tithing blessings are real.

I have changed so much in the last 5 years.

Yet, so much of me is still the same.

I am so grateful for my family.

I miss joking and badgering with my brothers.

I have so much to learn.

And I am truly showered with blessings from up above.

Don't ask me to count them, because I'll go forever.

And then the dishes will never get done.

Or the laundry.

I am learning. I'm changing. I'm growing. I'm re-learning. I'm realizing. I'm remembering. For better or for worse. Crossing my fingers it's for good. I have so many things to work on. Topping that list is probably my attitude. I've been stuck in a rut for a while, and the 'misfortunes' have been getting the best of me. I've tried to be optimistic... for a minute. And then BAM! TurboTax commercial. And then when I decide to stop my blubbering and wipe my tears - BAM! I make an awful dinner. And then when I clear the table and try to hide my hurt pride - BAM! A glass is dropped and broken. BAM! BAM! BAM! (It's been a rough week... Don't judge me. Please.)

But I need to stop focusing on all of that and instead see that luckily, no one was sliced when said glass was dropped. And luckily, I usually do make great dinners - And I can try again and make a new dinner tomorrow. And luckily, we have food so that I can make dinner tomorrow. And luckily, I have a tomorrow. (Barring the unexpected... of course.)

So I'm lucky. And by lucky I mean blessed. Because I'm pretty sure they're the same thing.

And I'm learning... lots of things. About myself. About what I want to be. And when I grow up, (and maybe before...) I want to be better. Nay, I want to be the best. Not necessarily better than everyone else. I don't want the responsibility of being the best at everything... that would certainly get tiring after... like two minutes. I want to be the best at being me. I want to be the best me.

Slowly, but surely, I'm learning how to do that. And I've got so much more to learn.